She asked,

I replied, No, I don't have any,

She informed me,

I know someone who had a child at 48; you are still young.

She informed me that you can have fertility treatment,

I replied that I did that in the past and that it did not work.

It was too much; I had to STOP.

I let her know I have had a hysterectomy.

So much bleeding, pain problems,

I had fibroids and adenomyosis.

So it had to be removed.

She felt sorry for me with pity.

But for me, this is my story.

My belly is still big; I'm unable to lose weight.

being told I am fat, go to the gym by my mother,

Everywhere I look, there are women with babies.

I look at the mirror and I'm not sure who I see,

trying to find myself again, after losing my confidence,

put into premenopausal symptoms, struggling.

She walked away after getting me ready for my brother's wedding.

How lucky is she? I thought as I closed the door.

Seeing my stomach looking in the mirror reminded me,

Where I am and my story.